First time out alone

I'm both excited and nervous about tonight. It will be my first night out since Little Miss S was born without her.

I think the word anxious best describes me right now. I'm already feeling very sorry for hubby who is probably going to have a very tearful night.

What with no special fresh mummy milk to fall asleep with. There is also the added upset that one of her top teeth has decided to make this weekend it's time to make an appearance. Making me feel even more guilty.

Im sure I left Miss H much earlier than this. But then I had stopped breastfeeding her at 12 weeks and she had a dummy. S is now 8 months still breastfeeding and doesn't have a dummy. Although I feel very proud of this. It also makes me feel that she is very much more dependant on me.

So all this is leaving me split with mixed feelings about tonight. As much as I'm looking forward to letting my hair down. I can't nudge the feeling of anxiety.